I came to Sam in an incredibly sorry state, I was completely dysfunctional, social anxiety chronically panicked, contracted, feeling like my insides were being twisted and contorted, just thinking about how it felt makes me uncomfortable my fight or flight senses were sky high 24/7 for the past 2 years, I slept 4 hours a night, I had no friends, no family support in fact they were quite ashamed and angry with me. I couldn't do my hobbies, I loved drawing and lifting weights, but the panic was so bad I couldn't do them either. It was a truly horrific time, I didn't like being alive, I hated everything, I was considering suicide as a very real option, I considered going to a euthanasia company in Europe. I really thought there was no hope. The spiritual path didn't help much either, in fact I used it to bypass deeply rooted trauma, it only amplified my desire to escape by letting the self die, but anyone else who's tricked this path knows you can't just do that. By sheer coincidence I found Sam hanging out in the comments section of every spiritual YouTuber I followed so out of curiosity I went on his profile and found out he offered consultations. The very first session I had with Sam was the most significant because for the first time in my life I broke down into tears in the presence of another person, even as a child I resisted the urge to cry in front of my parents, it was absolutely humiliating but I knew it was a step in the right direction. But also because it revealed an intense feeling of not wanting to be seen, wanting to hide behind a masculine persona. With Sam's guidance I was able to express fear, guilt, shame, anger, loneliness and sadness that had long been bottled up. A particular episode of our journey I'd like to highlight was the first 4 sessions, I was always late, because I was trying to meditate away the anxiety, once I was 30 minutes late so didn't show up at all because I was shitting bricks about being called out for it, but almost like telepathy he sensed this fear in me and sent me a heart felt messaged and offered to continue the session, I took him up on it and we went deep into feelings of guilt and loneliness. Another one is when Sam told me he wouldn't be able to do more than one session a month since up to that point he was doing multiple sessions a week for free, I respectfully told him it was no problem, but the truth was I was deeply sorrowful, but I repressed it out of respect, later that night sadness turned into anger at Sam, I was projecting a deep feeling of abandonment that I had felt before with family and friends, I went into those feelings and what I experienced was no less than an exorcism. An evil spirit of repression that had haunted my entire life finally left my soul and that was the beginning of my freedom, I was able to be emotionally honest in an environment where emotions were chastised and repressed, I cried in front of my parents at random, with who I never spoke a word emotional honesty up to that point, they were in complete shock and horror but I didn't care I gave myself up in religious devotion to being honest. And it paid off incredibly. Today I've finally returned to a baseline of relaxation, I've returned to my hobbies of drawing, reading and bodybuilding. Even now I'm in dismay, I can't believe I'm not only still alive but enjoying life again, although there's work to be done I have no doubt that I can get through it. Sam has been like an angel sent directly from heaven for me, I love him from the bottom of my heart. Thankyou for everything Sam ❤️❤️❤️